Day 6 of Blogmas- Not so christmasy

Hey!!
welcome to day 6 of blogmas meaning christmas is in 1 weeks time! I hope you are all well and feeling great. Now I know that many of you might be puzzled by the title of today's post but all will be explained as we go through this post. I have being overtaken by fears! I vaguely touched on this last post but i feel like I am not the only one going through these so called fears. Last post I had a comment asking about what is my fears that is causing this conspiracy in my brain but the truth is I don't know. I have no clue why I call it a fear it's just that if you put a name on something you think it will do less harm. This is not the case.

It all started not that long go about in summer. I had come back from my holiday in Malta and decided that for some reason I was "scared" well you could call it "scared I guess but I don't really know what to call it. In away It is a strange emotion that just seems to build up and never stop. However, this "feeling" or "emotion" or "Fear" comes and goes at random least expected moments when I don't want it to (not like I want it at all though).

Fast forward from summer I had had this feeling a few times, maybe 2 to 3 times, but the most horrible one of all was when I was going to spain for my Birthday. I'll tell you the story of what happened and you will see that the situation was worse enough  without me going in and adding more things to it. So let's begin this story:

It was October at around about 15 mins to 3pm we had to board the airplane , which was stressful enough as it is. But of cause it had to get way worse. As we were getting on we were told we had had our seat changed for an unknown reason so we were moved to an emergency exit. This was already pretty bad as my mom was moaning that she did not have a window. Then they dropped another bombshell. Me and my older sister had to move due to an age restriction policy.Firstly, we had to find new seats which was pretty hard on a fully booked plane. Eventually, we found seats and thay were together so we sat there. I sat in the middle as to me that is my safe zone so I don't feel scared about being in the ai. Of course the stranger sitting next to me felt like she was going to be sick!( random fact about me I have a fear of sick so I was worried anyway). But suddenly that thing came over me (the"feeling" or "emotion" or "Fear") and I could not stop crying, shaking, sweating even. It was so horrible. Long story short everything turned out fine after 50 mins of the feeling coming and going. I mean the woman was not sick and we even managed to find out that she was not ill she just had a strong fear of heights. **phew**.

  The point is I don't know what is happening but i really need to get this out my system as it's a little hard to explain to my family and well your my second family so thanks for listening!

Talkative Girl( Time to stop talking) xx